So here I sit. Overwhelmed with current life and harboring so many secrets from so many sections of my livelihood that I'm about to explode. Let me introduce myself by telling you I am a 34 year old woman. I'm relatively attractive, thin, a little more than average height, 130 pounds... I have a mid paying job that I enjoy, that I'm not sure I deserve. I have a beautiful boyfriend (my love), that again, I'm not sure I deserve. I also have a very sexy lover who I feel I am better than, so I don't respect his needs and he continuously breaks my heart as a result.
I'm in the throws of PMS today. It's making me sad and angry and I just want everyone to disappear.
I recently put a personal ad on Craig's List? That helped my mood for a few days. But, I suggest you don't do that unless you are utterly average and have low expectations.
My troubles tonight? Well. My boyfriend of almost 5 years, minus about 10 break-ups has been head over heels in love with me. That is, only since I met someone new a year ago. And before that he could have gone days without noticing he hadn't talked to me. So... it's only reasonable that I sought out someone new. And, as I said, now he wants to be wrapped around me 24 hours a day. My lover, on the other hand, is furious and threateningly close to not being in love with me anymore. My dilemma? My boyfriend fits my image. He's real. My lover? He's rough around the edges, has a dirty past, and not such a promising future. But he is ab-so-lutley!! delicious. He is capable of giving me such pleasures that I tingle just thinking about him. That, my dear friends, is the hook. And it's set deep!
What am I all about? I am about non-strenuous fun and meticulous success.
Why did I start this blog? So I don't explode.
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